Class of 2019
I've always wanted to be a doctor, for as long as I can remember. It all began with a coloring book; one my dad passed down to me when I was a child. It was filled with beautiful pictures of human anatomy. From that moment, at the young age of three, I knew someday I would be a mender of people, a healer. I took crayons to the pages with great care, the same way a doctor would treat her patients.
Today may have been my third white coat ceremony, but not because of failure...because of success, perseverance, and being one hell of strong woman.
Crohn's disease has taken so much of my young life from me, it has stolen some of my abilities, plagued me with pain, fatigue, and anguish. It has put my dreams on hold, even if only temporarily. Although it continues to challenge me, attack me even, on a daily basis, I refuse to let it conquer me.
Someday, many years from now, when I look back on the two years I spent fighting, enduring treatments and surgeries, essentially living in a hospital, in my own personal hell, I will not feel anger, I will feel pride. When I get to wear that long white coat that we as student physicians covet, I will have a deep satisfaction of the journey that brought me to be a physician. I not only survived, I endured and I outlasted. Furthermore, I am certain that my experiences as a patient were the most valuable learning experience I could ever have as a future physician.
Despite all of the challenges I have faced, I am STILL here. I am STILL pursuing my lifelong dream of becoming a physician. I am still worthy of my white coat.
A coloring book started my journey, and although I have not always been able to color within the lines of this life, I know it will end as I planned. As I pick up where I left off and embark on this voyage yet again, I am more inspired than ever and cannot wait to do great things. And, of course, I will keep coloring.
Alyssa Alda xoxoxx